Going by train is awesome.
First of all I am very prone to get car-sick. Take me one time around a traffic circle while I read and I´ll be sick straight out of the window. Seriously.
Secondly I don´t have a license or a car and going by bus is even worse than going by car. I have the possibility to puke onto other people, which makes me feel uncomfortable in the first place, so I am already aroused when getting onto the bus and therefore my stomach is in a tightened mood right from the start. Not good.

So I get onto the train with a quite good feeling of  having around 90 calm minutes of travel.
Or so I thought. Because shortly before departure,  all stupid parents with their stupid kids surround me in no time.
Bragging little brats, who can´t even eat an apple without making this into a major issue. And the parents are to blame too.
“Mommy I wanna have the Nintendo DS.”—-”You have to be polite and say ´please´”—–”Please.”—-”Maybe in whole sentences?”—–”Mommy I wanna have the Nintendo DS PLEEEEEZZZZ” (through gritted teeth)—–”Eat your apple first!”——”But I don´t want the stupid apple.”—–*mother takes apple out of package, unwashed, where it would be better if the child would not eat it due to pesticides*—”Little man, you will it the apple FIRST!”—-”But you told me to say PLEASE anyway!”
And so on and so forth.
Of course I could go and sit somewhere else….with every second person listening to music with earphones, but at such high volume as if I was listening to the radio in a car.
Only that I hear seven programs simultaneously. Country, Hard Rock, DnB, Rap, Hip Hop and Folk all combined into one frantic sound.
It is maddening.
In such a situation I pull out my Nintendo DS with earphones and listen to it at high volume to drown out any other sound or distraction.
Maybe I should rent a handcar.

The two weeks of rain have made people grumpy.
No sunshine, everyday water pouring from the clouds.
I know, sunshine is essential, vitamins, hormons, a lalala.
Still: since when is our happiness determined by the weather?

Yesterday the water in our house was turned off because there were some pipe reparations.
No water for washing your hands, for drinking, for the toilet, for rinsing your eye as a  lash decides to take a walk around your eye.
One only realizes how much water we need when it is gone. Now this wisedom is surely not new,
but we have to keep this in mind:
We are those who have all the honey in life. We have water. We have electricity.
We have all sorts of machines to help us in our daily life.
We have democracy.
Funny how Vienna is the city with the highest standard of living and the most beautiful city to live in from the view of life quality.
Funny too, how everybody in the world seems to know this except for the inhabitants.
People are aweful here, naging their way through days and years.
I think we should establish a day every month where the water and the electricity are turned down.

We have so many reasons to be happy.
I am happy because in times like these I can have my favourite cereals for breakfast without being a farmer,
harvesting the crop and milking the cow before I can eat.
Plus my favourite cereals are from the States.
Eating Lucky Charms is one of my sacred moments.

And so is taking a shower, making art and washing the dishes. Every moment is what you make out of it.
I am surely not the first one to tell you. But have you incorporated this into your life already?

Times are hard. The economy is down. The financial system has gone nuts.  Job rate is low low low. Money has taken a vacation and we don´t know when it´s coming back.
Ablablabla, I guess you´ve seen the news.  Or read the papers. Or simply are still alive at these times.
It seems like one should almost have a guilty conscience about even having a job. How dare you? Someone else could have it and survive!
Well, I thought I could be a little human. I quit my job to give it to somebody else in need. I am fed up with the bad news all the time.
I will be daring and start to be self sufficient.
Yaaaay, everyone party!!!!

….
But wait. How should this even work? I mean, do I have what it takes? Can I make it?
I am 24, I have never done such a thing! Am I crazy? How and why and and and….. STOP IT!!!
I have to be positive about this! There should be nothing diminishing my plans, the very last me myself!
If I have negative thoughts, many others will follow. But it also works the other way around.
This was proved by Suzi Blu and everyone at the Les Petit Academy.
I wrote a blogpost there about my plans.
Next thing I know is that I find a public message to all members by Suzi, telling everyone about my story.
The courage rising in me was unbelievable.  I never knew how much energy one can get out of this support at that phase of life.
All that insecurity that gathered inside of me all of a sudden is gone.
I love and feel loved and what is there more than this astonishing feeling of being appreciated for what one does and is.
All I can say is thank you.
Thank you all out there who support me mentally. Who are there to tell me that everything is ok the way I do it.
This is unbelievable.
Let´s take the journey!

Ok, I think everyone knows the drama. You managed to get to bed at a decent time.
Finally, since on all other days you stay up longer to work or read or play or paint or whatever.
You are acutally pretty proud of yourself. Look! It´s not even midnight!
But now you are in your bed and stare at the wall. Great.
Your head keeps babbeling about this and that. About what amount of work you will have to do tomorrow.
About how silly that comment was that your girl/boyfriend made today. About money matters and how you will survive this month.
About what you shall wear to that meeting. About how much you suck at what you do and that everyone is better than you.
About what to do with your life anyway and what is the reason for things happening the way the do.

And as far as I know it is pretty hard to think in a logic way as soon as it is dark.
Everything seems more dramatic. More daunting. More scary.

Here is what I do when my thoughts drive me nuts:
Now, as illogical as it may seem, but get out of your bed. The energy in your bed will last a very long time and if you like to toss and turn a lot, well then stay where you are, but I hate to waste my time with these kind of aerobics.

1) Make yourself some tea, preferably something with valerian, for it will slow your thoughts and make you tired.
Step away from warm milk with honey, the sugar is just too much and the milk will keep your stomache working—->bad sleep.
2) Take a shower. Get yourself clean. Your body and your thoughts. Try to use some products that contain lavender.
3) Change your bed clothes. Yes, it is annoying. Yes, it is work. But it is so much better to be in your clean bed with yourself being clean aswell.
4) Try some aroma therapy. Use blood orange or tangerine or grapefruit.
They will lighten up your spirits and keep those bad thoughts away.
Plus: the light from the candle is calming too.
5) Get some positive literature. I can recommend “Eat Pray Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert. Always works.
Or you add Bret Angel Dealey on facebook.
He writes wonderful posts about being human and resolutions for all the stuff in my head.
6) Fresh clothes. The happy pyjamas that you love so much. If you don´t have one, get one.

7) Count your blessings. Because you are an awesome person. Because you are healthy.
Because you have 10 fingers and know how to use them.
Because there is this special somebody you like to think about.
Because tomorrow is another perfect day to start the life you want to live.